I have been "struggling" with my mind, going back & forth on decisions I have made a while back regarding my training plan for my FULL marathon (my 1rst!) coming in November. I figured out what I wanted to do, or should I say NOT do. I was good with it, and then....recently , blah.
Just about EVERY day there is SOMEONE, or SOMETHING saying what you should or should not do for training for/running a marathon. It is overwhelming & just done right ANNOYING now. It has drove me nuts far to long. I am tired of "doubting" myself & the plans I have made.
There is ALWAYS some kind of article or person telling me I need to do this, or I should be doing this, or this is right, this is wrong. I have let it get the best of me sometimes.
I have not been upset or sad or anything drag me down kind of way but I HAVE been getting overwhelmed and feeling like I am losing my mind, and frankly doing it ALL WRONG when it comes to my running.
I am no expert and I do not know what will work for others, but what I do know is what my GUT is telling me to do. To bad my mind won't shut it's mouth!!
I am "tired" of the influences/standards trying to be PUSHED onto me. Whether it be by someone who has NEVER run before, or someone who has run 1000000000000 marathons. JUST because something works for you does not mean it is right for others. If there was a "RIGHT" way of doing it then EVERYONE would agree and there would only be ONE way not 1000 ways and a MILLION articles published everyday telling you what you are to do.
I will be following my OWN plan for my marathon in the way of I will be doing my NORMAL 1 hour run 2 days a week, HILL run every other week, and LSD on weekend when I have the TIME to. I am following the RUNNERS WORLD plan ONLY for LSD runs.
No I am not following the plan and running 5 days a week. I am only running 3-4. No I am not following the plan and running 50 miles a week, nor am I following the plan and running MORE then the 5-5.5 miles I can run in that HOUR of running I will do during the week. No I am not doing speed work nor tempo runs nor anything else. I am JUST going to run.
I do not care what Jeff, Hal, Runner's world, etc say. I CARE what I say.
I have come this far (13.1 mile runs for "FUN") by adding my own mileage doing my own thing.
What do I want from my MARATHON..I just want to do it!!! I want to finish I want that medal and I want to say I DID it!
Listening &/or reading all this "junk" being thrown/pushed on/at me is not FUN. It takes the FUN out of running. When it no longer becomes FUN, it is no longer enjoyable. I want to run FOREVER not just for RIGHT now.
Now PLEASE noone get me wrong if you have followed a plan and done wonderful..CONGRATS. You CHOSE to follow that & do what you did. AWESOME JOB!! I....I just am not choosing to drown in the information that is bombarding me every time I turn on my dang computer. Ugh. I will no longer feel like I NEED to do this or I NEED to do that. Nor will I feel like I am FAILING because I can't or will NOT do what this ir that person says to do. Heck if I followed everyone I'd be running 7 days a week 60 miles a day at a 1 min/mile pace.
BITE ME!!
I also read today that you should not do more then ONE 20 mile run in your training when OTHERS say MORE then one 20 mile run. Well I am running 3 20 mile runs. So...
All that I have said ABOVE is not with an attitude, or anything else. The whole time I have been writing I am happy, and smiling. I mean NO HARM or no NEGATIVENESS. I just mean enough is enough FOR ME.
Next...running subject. My IT Band. I do not know what I have done right and I am not questioning it. I just would like to know so I can KEEP doing it!! I have been PAIN FREE for 6 runs now!!! The ONLY difference there has been is the day BEFORE it STOPPED hurting I started walking ONE hour a DAY. SO ONLY thing that makes sense to me is that walking has been working muscles that running does not. I have had a TWINGE once or twice where it felt like ti was starting back up...at that point I WALKED for MAYBE 30 secs just to relax it, then picked right back up on running. Has not happened EVERYTIME just once during a run every now and then.
I have my VERY FIRST HALF marathon in just 3 days!!!! Look at the ELEVATION/HILL chart for what I will be facing...
Oh me oh my!!
Now on another subject...
I have me walking 60 mins a day, doing my ST'ing & doing everything right. I will leave it at that lol. I find it SO AMAZING how what bloat goes away (from eating bad last year holidays) you feel a HUGE difference & it is so noticeable. I am actually looking forward to weigh in's!!
I have been relaxed, remaining positive, and staying motivated. Has nothing to do with the 1rst of year. I do not make resolutions. I make goals. My goals are not any different then the ones I already had in 2011. I am tired of having the same goal since 2010.
DO I want to lose this last bit of weight? YES!! DO I want to hurry? NO!! All I am MAINLY focused on right now is training and being able to run my 1/2's and marathon. Weight will do what it wants. I just know I am and will be doing everything right.
I am known to worry about every last detail constantly 24/7. I am a big ball of worry. Well maybe I shall reword that. I WAS. I am doing my best to think of it as it is out of my hands, so what is the point of worrying?! It is out of my control nothing I can do about it.
Such as I will name ONE thing...last night I got a letter from Medicaid (only assistance I have ever been able to get from Government!) saying ym children my pride and joys...have been terminated because we make to much. Do you know how much more?...50.00 more. (My hubby is working ONE job now 6 hours a day 5 days a week) So now my boys have NO INSURANCE. I was relaxed...ALL I thought was nothing I cna do. It is out of my hands, out of my control. Worrying about tomorrow will only shed today of it's happiness. As well as one last thought...Don't worry when good things go bad...life is only making way for something better.
When I said NEW YEAR NEW ME. I meant it.
That is about all folks!! If you read this far...THANKS!!
XOXOXO
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