In response to my LAST blog (from earlier today!) :)

Thank you alll sooo very much!! It means so much to me to have all the support you guys showed me regarding my last blog and the big decision! ;)

I want to run at least 1-2 half marathons before hand but there are no "small" ones here they are all big with price of $65 cheapest. That is crazy steep for myself and my family. I can't do that. MAYBE 1 time if I donated a kidney...:-\

I have 4-5 different plans I have found that I need to decide on. There are so many different choices it is so overwhelming. That is the problem. I do not know how to figure out which one will work best for me.

For me I have mental issues regarding food. Sort of like an eating disorder. So for ME I can not focus on weight loss while focusing on marathon training. I would LOVE to, but I personally can not do both at the same time.

ALL that lies ahead is going to be challenging. MENTALLY more then ANYTHING else.

I am not going in this with a time goal...I just want to be able to say I FINISHED!! That is all I care about. That is my GOAL. Just to finish.

Now the thing is I have no idea what to eat. For me it is what I eat now and JUNK. Don't get me wrong I am NOT saying this because it's either my way or no way. I sincerely do NOT know what else I can eat. I am clueless on what foods to eat. Now if I am not focusing on weight loss that means I am not focusing on calories. So I could eat MORE of what I eat. That is an option, but is there anything else I should eat that I am not?

Once again there are sooo many articles and things I COULD and HAVE read but they ALL say DIFFERENT things, which leads back to OVERWHELMING crap.

If you take a look @ the elevation map this is also a 10-11 mile HILL rise from the beginning. As well as the rest is down hill. There are category's for HILL routes and it is rated a 5, which is the LOWEST. So that is good but none the less it is hills for the 1rst 11 miles!! How the hell do I do that let alone run DOWN hill the other half??

Yikes! So beyond freaked! Checking it out is a good idea but it will just make me poop my pants. HAHA sorry folks! I  want to check it out and when I do I will be scared so much more!

I am just purely crazy!! Don't forget so determined! Nah just NUTS!!

Those are my thoughts. My adrenaline is STILL pumping. Oh boy I hope I can relax before the MARATHON! haha j/k j/k I KNOW it won't last that long but still. I feel like I am on "crack"! EXCUSE THE EXPRESSION!!

So there you have it I am nuts, on crack, nervous, over whelmed, confused, scared, and CCRRAAZZYY!!

XOXOXO

This is what I hope to be thinking, saying, feeling, and believing when I am done with this: